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[meretricula]

ganked from aramley. doubt anyone's interested, but hey, might as well.

Pick a paragraph (or any passage less than 500 words) from any story I've written, and comment to this post with that selection. I will then give you a DVD commentary on that snippet: what I was thinking when I wrote it, why I wrote it in the first place, what's going on in the character's heads, why I chose certain words, what this moment means in the context of the rest of the fic, lots of awful puns, and anything else that you'd expect to find on a DVD commentary track.

you can find a list of all my fic here or in my memories. go on, play with me! all of us in the States have the day off tomorrow; you might as well distract me from the sound of my thesis not writing itself.

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oh, Rafa/Mandy. the hatesex would be epic. though to be serious, I really do see an unrequited crush on Mandy's side as plausible - most of the older players and Rafa have their epic crush on Roger, but I don't think Mandy or Nole ever did. I think if they went through an OMGHE'SSOAWESOME phase about another player, it was probably Rafa. and Rafa was probably completely oblivious. (that's why we love him!)

I'm actually quite curious about the dynamic between Nole and Andy, and I was trying to explore that a little bit here. I was very surprised to learn they used to be close friends, because since they've been jockeying back and forth for 3, 4, 2, it seems they don't get along at all. (Mandy made some seriously catty remarks about Nole when 3 and 4 flipped, I remember that.) bronze_ribbons mentioned the coolest idea the other day, you might find it interesting, that she was contemplating an AU where Nole took British citizenship. how bizarre would that have been? Mandy and Nole doubles for Davis Cup! (in my head, Nole would be desperately lonely and miss Serbia like crazy but it's better for his little brothers to have all the opportunities from the LTA so he doesn't complain, he just clings to Ana like a limpet at all the mixed tournaments. and she's pals with Rafa so that's how they really meet properly. I can't help being so obsessed with OTP!)

anyway, I can never really remember why I wrote things, except of course that the Montreal tournament happened and I needed to console myself. so here I spoiled myself with outsider perspective on the relationship, which I really like as a plot device, and also protective!Nole, whom I adore for obvious reasons. I think Nole here has been really worried sick about Rafa for a while, and he's stressed out about maybe having to play Rafa soon if the draw goes according to plan, and so he kind of snaps on Andy. he wouldn't normally be so obvious about it. (I actually feel really bad for Andy in this fic. I didn't when I started writing, but by the time I was finishing up I was like, wow, it really sucks to be him, he has absolutely no idea how to go about expressing his feelings. like, even less idea than the rest of these emotionally stunted idiot boys.)

oh, I do remember why I wrote this, actually! I was listening to a song called "No More Stones to Throw" on my way home from work, which is basically about the futility of war, and the band that sings it is Scottish-Canadian, and I thought, wow this song is perfect for Mandy. just, the idea that he's been working and working and working for this ranking for so long, and then he gets it and he realizes it isn't what he wants at all, and what he wants he can't get, at least in part because he did get the ranking. I write an honestly disturbing number of fics because I think of songs with lyrics that make good titles. that's where We Both Go Down Together and And I Am Standing Still both came from. someday I will get it together enough to write Rafa/Feli porn entitled "como se puede bailar (es un escandolo)". priorities!