meretricula | ~cries buckets~

Keijijyou na Bokura has come to an end. I'm glad it had a happy ending, but still... it's saddening. At least Houryuu stopped being a dickhead long enough to go to France to find Shouin... i was ready to throw something at my computer after they broke up at the end of the previous chapter. And the ending was so cute it made tears come to my eyes.

I don't feel like going over to the floozy and posting separately, so...

I've been practicing a lot today. I had my dad listen to the Beethoven and the Kreisler, since I have to decide which one I'm going to work on for the next month tomorrow. I still think the Kreisler sounds like utter shite, and the Beethoven not so much. EVERYONE else disagrees with me. Dad had some interesting insights - he said that since the Kreisler is so obviously a technically difficult virtuoso piece, listeners are more forgiving of slip-ups, while the Beethoven sounds very easy (it's NOT) so out-of-tune notes are very jarring. However, after hearing Norman Yu BUTCHER the Kreisler in a recital, I don't want to do that to it. I like the piece, sort of, although I haven't gotten over hating it for being an audition piece yet. It sounds cool when someone can play it well. I can't; ergo it sounds like shit. Even with a month of really practicing, I don't think I can learn to play the Kreisler reliably well. But nobody thinks I can learn to play the Beethoven well enough to perform it, and it pisses me off, since I really can't hear what's wrong with it.

Even so, am I the only one who thinks it's better to play a less-impressive piece competently (or at least not embarrassingly) than to play an obviously-difficult piece with huge glaring holes? There are three line passages that i just CAN'T PLAY. At all. And others that are blatantly, painfully out of tune. Tackling a challenge is only impressive if you succeed. Otherwise, it's pathetic. And I won't win anything anyway. I played my best last year and I still lost. To the damn Asian pianists. At least this time I can lose to an African-American clarinetist; variety is the spice of life, after all...

Hm. Homework. Ah, yes, that thing I haven't done yet...