existential crisis!!!

[meretricula]

seriously, have you ever had a moment like you've suddenly realized you're in the Matrix? good god. I was reading all these really ancient and very detailed wank reports on Cassie Claire's circle back in the day and had the sudden horrific thought... what if I'm a troll too?

...you guys would tell me if I were a troll, right? I know I don't always remember to be nice. and I was kind of a bitch over the fbkink thing. and I say awful things sometimes without really thinking about it. and got told by a Canadian yesterday that I'm embarrassing to be seen with because I swear too much, so it's not even just an online thing.

but if I'm being awful please just tell me, okay? I don't want to be a troll.

fandom is scary sometimes.

(PS: good god cornerflag why must you be so difficult to write.)

Comments

[jynx.livejournal.com]

a - I think Americans in general swear too much. So don't take that to heart. Granted, I mostly hung out with boys when I was a kid, so I KNOW I have a horrible mouth (though I'm trying to turn "fuck" into "frak" to tone the swearing down).

b - Hun, unless you plagiarize and then blow it off and THEN GET FRAKKING PUBLISHED I don't think you're going to get to her levels. Trolls = start flame wars for fun. Everyone has troll moments, but you're not a total troll unless that's all you do.

*HUGS* I think you're good. :)

[meretricula.livejournal.com]

lmao, I was trying to tone it down in front of him afterward because I didn't want to be offensive and it was a continuous stream of "blah blah fucking - oh, fuck, sorry" until he finally rolled his eyes and said I shouldn't try to change.

but jesus the stuff that went down in that fandom. I had no idea. not even all CC, just the people around her were fucking awful. and there was some crazy girl who had a zillion alternate troll identities and was responsible for huge flamewars... all to become friends with Cassie Claire. it's horrifying and unnerving and I had an "oh god ANYONE COULD BE LYING ABOUT ANYTHING THIS IS THE INTERNET" moment.

hee, thank you :) ~hugs back~

[jynx.livejournal.com]

lol. Exactly. Its hard to remember to censor yourself too much. I'm certainly not as crass as I was when I was 10-15 (and with good reason) but I still have my moments. Actually, a guy in class had the nerve to tell me that my men (in my story) sounded more like girls because they didn't swear enough. And that they said "seriously" and "really" too much and therefore weren't men. XD Ooooh the interestingness of language and gender, yeah?

HP is a scary fandom. ANIME is nearly almost as scary. But I don't think any fandom has ANYTHING on HP. Well. ...maybe Marvel comic fandom with their giant bullshit about Tony Stark and Steve Rogers and their damned Civil War. But, if you want the bait trolls and see them in their prime - go to 4chan. They are good for laughs. :D

And there are 4chan boards for everything. ;)

[meretricula.livejournal.com]

dialogue is definitely one of the most interesting parts of writing to me! there are so many factors. though I know even in English some things really are gender markers in speech... apologizing is a very female trait, for instance. =/ there have been linguistic studies, I think. might be fun to investigate at some point.

I don't think I'm advanced enough in Internet Studies to brave 4chan. that's a level of trollery I'm just not prepared for. XD

[jynx.livejournal.com]

XD I...love 4chan. It's a great way to waste time. And to laugh at people. And a lot of boards aren't that bad. Some have bad reps because people are stupid sometimes on certain boards but.

I should look up the linguistic study, esp since I mostly write men!

[tinuvielchild.livejournal.com]

A good search string for such linguistic studies (and there have been more than a couple) is "gender-linked language effect".

[meretricula.livejournal.com]

thank you bb! ♥

[jynx.livejournal.com]

.....i think i love you. :D